And if there were words to describe you, it wouldn’t even come close to what comes to my mind. You took care of me and made me stronger; not bitter. I hate what’s going on right now, and I know you don’t want me to wait, but having you around made me feel so much better. They say long distance doesn’t matter, but in reality, it just depends what is going on. For us, our situation was too complicated. We didn’t fight much, but the distance was the one that caused so much problems. Work came around, I’m so stubborn to let you go because no one ever came close to my heart this way. You were the first guy that my family loved and who enjoyed your company. You were the first guy who I actually slept with in bed together and just cuddle all night with. The first boyfriend who I took a roadtrip down to San Diego with. I love how you showed me around L.A. and making me feel like I was apart of the city. Spending Thanksgiving and Christmas with you was the best thing a girl could ask for. And you gave me that. You also taught me how to drive stick. I know we don’t want this, but there’s no other choice. I wanted to say thank you, Victor for always taking care of me and listening to all my bullshit. I’m so sorry that sometimes I got upset with you for some wrong reasons. I blame that on myself. You were always there even in my past relationships and out of all of them, you were the best one I could ever ask for. I’m selfish, you know that? I’m scared because you’re something that I want that any girl can get. I want you so bad, but what’s happening now can’t be solved until I live down in southern California. I promise I will somehow get there. We’ll go back to where we started from. I know I can do it. Just be patient. I’m returning you a favor now since you drove out here to be with me when you used to live in Virginia. This is my motivation to take things seriously in school and to be with you. I’m not giving up on you just yet, but I’m willing to be patient about it because you’re something that I want. I’ll keep going. I love you. I’ll come back for you.
